Tommy DOG (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} revmutt) wrote,@ 2008-02-05 11:00:00 |
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It's less then a month until I turn 40. I never really planned on this or certainly not much past it.
I pictured my life differently and now I'm looking at the progression of time marching forward and I feel like I should be stopping or at least changing the pace.
If I have to complain it's not going to be about my wifeduckydoo, family or friends. This is an area for which I feel purely blessed, in love and proud. These people are champions each in their own right.
My constant dreams are about regretting quiting smoking, missing my late dog Otis and longing for a time when I only did music. One does not need to be Freud to understand that I am simply not happy with a certain portion of my life. These are all major issues, these are the kind of things that are what's left when I am alone.
If I could do anything it would be to radically change my life to open up these doors but I feel that this is all a fraction of my past so I am hoping to come up with a new life that will not worry my wife, disturb our happy home BUT make me feel like I've already seen and done pretty much what I wanted to.
It's less then a month until I turn 40. I never really planned on this or certainly not much past it.
I pictured my life differently and now I'm looking at the progression of time marching forward and I feel like I should be stopping or at least changing the pace.
If I have to complain it's not going to be about my wife
duckydoo, family or friends. This is an area for which I feel purely blessed, in love and proud. These people are champions each in their own right. My constant dreams are about regretting quiting smoking, missing my late dog Otis and longing for a time when I only did music. One does not need to be Freud to understand that I am simply not happy with a certain portion of my life. These are all major issues, these are the kind of things that are what's left when I am alone.
If I could do anything it would be to radically change my life to open up these doors but I feel that this is all a fraction of my past so I am hoping to come up with a new life that will not worry my wife, disturb our happy home BUT make me feel like I've already seen and done pretty much what I wanted to.
